Monday, July 11, 2011

My Tragic Flaw

The more things change, the more they stay the same. I’m not sure who the first person was who said that. Probably Shakespeare. Or maybe Sting. But at the moment, it’s the sentence that best explains my tragic flaw: my inability to change. I don’t think I’m alone in this. The more I get to know other people, the more I realize it’s kind of everyone’s flaw. Staying exactly the same for as long as possible, standing perfectly still… It feels safer somehow. And if you are suffering, at least the pain is familiar. Because if you took that leap of faith, went outside the box, did something unexpected… Who knows what other pain might be out there, waiting for you? Chances are it could be even worse. So you maintain the status quo. Choose the road already traveled and it doesn’t seem that bad. Not as far as flaws go. You’re not a drug addict. You’re not killing anyone - except maybe yourself, a little. When we finally do change, I don’t think it happens like an earthquake or an explosion, where all of a sudden we’re like this different person; I think it’s smaller than that. The kind of thing most people wouldn’t even notice unless they looked at us really close - which, thank God, they never do. But you notice it. Inside you that change feels like a world of difference. And you hope this is it. This is the person you get to be forever… that you’ll never have to change again.
-Ephram Brown

About a year ago, I did something unexpected, took a leap of faith so to speak. I really tried to do what I felt was the right thing. And even though it took some time for me to see the silver lining and to get back on my feet, I have no regrets. I still have my days, I mean everyone does, but all in all I'm much happier. I do hope I always look back to this and remember that even if something seems tough, you just need to be a bit selfish and do what's best for you. I really hope others will follow this advice when they're struggling with some situation as well.

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